Jobs I want to do before I die.

I would forever be grateful if God extends my life for 200 years. I want to do a lot of things in my life but I guess my lack of concern in my health would probably cause contradictions with my hope. Furthermore, here are the list of things I want to work on during my life:

1. I want to be a world traveler. If there is something that I’m desperately wanting to happen in my life, it is to see a lot of wonderful places that God has created. In the same way that I want to experience how to be in a place I’ve never gone yet. Also, I want to feel and witness different cultures, marvel different languages, and internalized different forms of philosophy. I want to taste unfamiliar foods, because they say that the secret of pleasure can be achieve into something unusual. In short, I want to try all the adventure that travelling has to offer.I swear I’d be the happiest version of myself if I get a chance to see the whole world. I know it’s highly expensive to put this dream in reality, however, I believe that there is nothing expensive in something you really want.

2. I want to be a Myx VJ. Actually, I’m planning to audition next summer and surely it will be my first time to join at a television show, just in case I have the guts to showcase my talent in front of the camera. Well I know I can do it. Besides, I want also to give myself a shot working inside showbusiness even for a while. Basically, I’m not asking for a long time stay at Myx. 3 months for me is already enough.

3. I want to be a model. This is somewhat too far from reality, I know. Because first, I am too lazy to work on my body. Second, I am not fond of exercising. Third, I don’t like to have abs because I don’t think I can maintain it. All in all, I have no muscular physique. On the other hand, I’m a little confident that I have enough wonderful looks to use in my amateur photo shoots Although I have not entered formal modeling school yet, I know for sure that I have a very good relationship with cameras. Also, I am tall, which is the basic requirement for a model. I have a pleasant skin color. No matter how impossible it may seems, I still want to be a model.


I regret nothing


I’m a teenager. I don’t regret staying late almost every night because I know that all the stories my friends and I have discussed are as precious as gems. I don’t regret spending too much money on foods because those pay me back so well in the first place. I don’t regret screaming across the street in the middle of the night while walking with my friends because it gives me an unconventional happiness I have never felt before. I don’t regret being infatuated to every single person I find interesting, because at least it gives me a sensation of butterflies.

Truly, I waste time, I become unproductive or dysfunctional, I laugh hard, I give love as much as I can, and this is the life I know, though it seems like I live it damn imperfectly. On the other hand, in effect of all these, I can see myself struggling from sleepless night, I mess up at school because I’m occasionally unprepared, I lose appetite. This is how I experience the carefree kind of life.

I’m a teenager. For once, I want to feel it, to hold it, and never let go of it. I want to throw my books for a while and chat with my friend endlessly. I want to try, at least, not to listen at class and stare at nothing because I’m sleepy. I am certain that after all the mess I have produced, I can fix everything and get myself back in life. Maybe it happens that I’m just overly exhausted of making sure that my life is always falling in right places. That’s why here I am, trying to run my life at its worst. As what everyone says: life is too short, time flies too fast, and I am only given one opportunity to be a teenager, to be in a world of growing up. So why should I refuse this once in a lifetime event? I’m a teenager and this is the time that I feel perfectly infinite. So I regret nothing.