It’s not about the qualities that you didn’t have or something that you didn’t give to that person. Give yourself a break from moping around all day, staring at your ceiling late at night, and blaming yourself for why the connection between you and that person ended. Maybe it wasn’t you who’s wrong but the relationship itself.
For all the times that you suffered from that messy break up, what were the odds that he felt the same level of pain? You wish you could say the odds were the same.
You have hurt yourself bad enough that it became so unfair already.
Your relationship didn’t work out because when he was so damn intoxicated and lonely, all it took was only a minute of reply from you but when you needed a shoulder to cry on, he couldn’t be there.
It didn’t work out because when he moved his knees close to yours in a crowded room and challenged you in a staring contest, you lost because you saw your fears in his eyes, and he celebrated as if defeating you was gold for him.
It didn’t work out because when you both crashed on the same bed after an awesome night, you woke up with no one by your side — without a note, without a text message, not even a goodbye kiss.
It didn’t work out because he cared more about his bro than you, when he offered him the passenger seat and asked you to take the back seat.
It didn’t work out because you liked blue but he loved red. And he wanted you to choose his way.
It didn’t work out because when you called him on the hour that you needed someone to listen to you about how stressed you were at work or life in general, he sighed and told you that he was tired.
It didn’t work out because when he finally realized that you weren’t the cut-out cover girl he was expecting you to be, he automatically went cold.
It didn’t work out because he cringed every time you talk about your romantic excitement for Nicholas Sparks novels or your passion for arts or your desire to write him love letters or your advocacy to help the children who were victims of war conflicts or your dream of changing the world.
It didn’t work out because when he was certainly sure that you put your heart and trust in him, he started feeding you lies and sent you mixed signals about his loyalty.
It didn’t work out because when he caught a tear that fell out of your eyes, he yelled at you for being overly-dramatic and told you to keep yourself together because you were embarrassing him.
It didn’t work out because when he verbally and physically abused you, you let it pass, but it happened again after a week then after a month — and he didn’t feel sorry about it, not even a little, not even at all.
You could be downhearted for losing a love story that was so raw and so honest even if it was clearly wrong on its face value, because playing with fire ignited your coal. But there should be a certain point where you have to stop, because getting flamed isn’t worth the burns anymore. You could give yourself a hundred more reasons why it didn’t work out but you could also give yourself one reason why you should move on.
Your relationship didn’t work out because God is preparing you for someone who could treat you better and could be the epitome of a one true love. And by then everything would work just fine.